June 2010
We're badasses (H) yes that's me & my babyy!
Are they Exams or A Death Sentence?
I hatee exams so bloody much! :( I’m sick of uni & studying & waking up in the mornings & getting ready.. Meh.. I wanna stay at home & sleep & eat vegan junk & tlk to my bambii all day longg
Bambi
Date #3 - Kenroku-en Garden, sakura trees,...
Uhm so since according to our bet if his last date was more than I expected I wud have to plan the nxt date! So I did :$ I decided to take him to japan on our private jet since he’s such a jap freak<3 & our first stop was kanzawa-city, ishikawa. For Kenroku-en Garden since its supposed to be one of the most beautiful gardens in japan, anyhoo once we got there we were walking around...
Him & Me
Were so perfect together
He’s the wing & I’m a feather
We soar, we fly, way up high
Like the stars & the sky..
He brightens up my everything
He is all that love can bring
& very much more
I would never ask for another thing
If we end up with eachother
He will be my forever
“Looking For Alaska”
– I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch,
to wrap my arms around her and sleep.
Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex.
Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase.
But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous...
Wish #1 - My whore aunts should die :)
Fuckin’ bitch her daughter does all sorts of fucked up shit & who gets blamed for it? Me! Why? Cause I went to a private school, I talk to guys & I use facebook!
Srsly what planet are these apes 4rm?
“I died 100,000 times & came back to life just to see you happy, & I know...”
– Him
He has been in love with me from the past 7...
My Mom Is The Best Mom Ever
Darlin’ would you please dry my tears now?
I can’t stop crying because of what you said to me..
You hurt me ever so deeply tryin to change me 3
It hurts everywhere :'(
Wtf!! He asked me to call & wake him up I laughed & he got pissed at me :s he was like I knw u dnt want to do it! I’ll just ask someone else! :s wht the fuck is up his ass! I mean srsly just cause I giggled dsnt mean I didn’t want to do it..
Guys are all idiots! Fagz..
Sore throats & Voiceless summers
Ugh!! I’m sickk :’( my throat is soo fudged up! I can hardly talk D: I just had green tea.. I think its a little better„ I have a killer migraine as well >.< Uff this suxx! I wish I could ditch uni again :( I’m soo sleepyy! O.o… I shud have done yoga in the morningg <.<
The Health Freak Within >w
Okay so its been a few days since I last posted„ ima be quick bout updating — uhm! I got back my BB, I’m a vegetarian, I hate my dad right now, my brother is clumsy, my mom is the BEST mom ever!, my aunts are gossip whores & trouble makers, my cuzinz are amazing<3, my friends are the best, my lover is the most caring & wonderful guy ever, wow after writing tht it made...
My BB is backk!
The disconnected - Day 3
Well my BB still doesn’t work.. meh.. i miss it so fucking much.. :/
I Ditched uni today & slept till like 12 or something.. by the time i turned on my spare fone i had like 10 miss calls & msgs >.> such lovely caring friends i have lol
i replied & apologized to them for not answering & hit the shower after that I had lunch owh xDD which reminds me i bought the book...
The disconnected - Learn to speak up..
I have a problem with expressing my emotions.. I just cant tell him how Im feeling :/ & its hurting him & me too.. but its not like I do it by purpose.. i wish i could open up. I swear its just so hard for me.. the first time i did that is open up & tell a guy how i felt he hurt me so bad Im still hurt.. Im still healing.. & fuck Im crying again..
lol its funny its been so long...
The disconnected - Day 2
Okay so its been 2 days without my blackberry.. ugh.. i feel so out of place & disconnected from the whole world! well almost the whole world or atleast just “my” world..
Im at uni right now.. ditching class <.< uh.. there was a quiz which i forgot about so i didnt go to class.. hmm.. I have a quiz in the nxt class to :/ maybe i shud start studyingg 4 spanish lol the sir...
I used to have many faults, now I have only two - everything I say and everything I do…
Bad Luck - The Cure For The Curse, Where Can I...
Ugh im soooo upset :/ as soon as everything seems to get back on track.. things begin to fuck up again.. uff.. i just feel like my hearts okay all stitched up but still hurt & then someone or something happens.. its like they tear it right out of my chest & stamp on it O_O it fucking hurtss!
but who’s there to listen or care?! :/ i mean sure the ppl who care & listen...
FUCK SIBLINGS!
i hateee my brother!!! tht idiot fucked up my BB :’( now i have no way of contactingg “him” :( GAH!!!!!!!!!!! this is a major FUCK!.. blah..
Spanish is fucking with me -_-" & I thought it was...
Apparently I’m not romantic enough for him :) I’m never good enough for anyone..
I'm hopeless? :c
Bang bang my baby shot me down..
Return of the ex-hole,, Volume-2
Lol you see everytime I tlk to him, he insults me & I shut up.. I always thought tht because I left him.. I have to stick up with all the shit he said & did.. I got fed up of it so today I had an out burst.. All the times he threatend me I told him exactly how hurt I was to be treated like that by my first love.. Exactly how it felt when he told me he never loved me, when he called me a...
For the right time..
so it figures that noone is quite ready for us to be together.. so i guess we’ll have to wait.. it sucks cause i had soo much fun while being with him..
Hahaha! He wants to know what I wrote about him! Do I tell?
Owh fifaa!! I’ve been waiting for you for 4 years!
I hate it when ppl judge me.. Especially when its someone close who I love.. It hurts..
Wow that’s it huh? Why did his brother have to interfere.. We were soo happy.. /: now we have to break up.. 3 I’m so upset! :’(
I wish I could stop worrying, just let my self be happy for a moment..
I wish I could just be normal.. but what has ever been normal in my life? I’m 17, I’ve fallen in love before but this is different.. He completes me.. He is my other half.. He is my morning & my good bye.. My every bright color in life.. My bitter sweet dreams.. He’s too good to be mine.. He must be a...
“babyy..” “yes?” “dream of me:*, hope you don’t mind I stole your line..” “Haha what ever is mine is yours, I love you kitten now go to sleep I don’t want you to be tierd..:*”
He comes bk & its like nothing ever happened.. He just keeps everything balance & in place just like the way it should be..
He calls me kitten
The Ex-hole is bk..
Its life when things that come around, go around … Because friends turn to foes, lovers turn to friends and fire turns to ash everything changes and life goes on ..
Haha I married him on f.b :D
He made me write his name on my wrist.. :3
AHAHAHA! Girlls Back The Fuck Off! That Boy Is...
I thought I was lost but he found me..
He found my heart, the heart which I had hidden even from my self..
You might think its weird but he lit a flame within me.. It burns with such blinding light.. Its warm & loving I can’t imagine myself without it anymore..
I guess after a week it will be over.. He will go bk to being my best friend.. & I’ll go back to pretending I...
Wake me up with a kiss
& forever I'll dream of...
Your Heart Is Right Here - Bleach
Sleep deprived.. But full of lovee..
I stay awake all day just to tlk to him, got less than 3 hours of sleep last night, but is it worth it? Uhm Fuck yes! & I so wasn’t goin to go if he didn’t force me xD
But now he’s asleep & will go to work later.. While I study my ass off at uni x]
Wow look at the weather :s uhm sorry.. Tht was random but I just looked a the window xD & there’s a sandstorm...
Permanent butterflies? -- yes they do exist.. :$
Blame the butterflies..
So every time he says I wish I could hold you tight & never let you go & every time he sends me an “I love you” I smile like a freak & get all warm & fuzzy insidee :$
Everytime he gets jealous of ppl around me I feel like I’m worth something, everytime he calls me baby I melt, everytime I look at him I’m thinking why is he so freakin’ amainzingg.....
“So tell me wht exactly got you jealous?! :$ :P”
“I dunno -.-” I guess I don’t do sharing very well..”
“So u want me for your self !! All for you :$ ? Noone but youu?”
“Uh.. x_x I.. Um.. Guess so..”
Tell Me I'm Stupid For Loving Him Now..
“So now tell me, did you really get jealous? :>”
“What do you think? -.-“”
“Wow.. I dunno :P you told me you never do! I.. I can’t believe this is happening! I didn’t plan for this xD”
“Neither did I.. -.-“
“Well honeslty you won’t believe how happy I am right now! Its even better than when I got 3rd rock :O no...
My clueless darling..
2nd day were together & everyone is trying to steal him away :(( even my friends!
I told him that I get jealous & he seemed so freakin’ happy :s..
I mean is obvious I care but did he need tht much proof?
He asked wht I wud do if he cut himself & I swear to God my heart stopped in my chest.. & I wud have burst into tears but god bless my self control..
He’s mine.....
